Who the hell do I think I am?

Despite linking to many programming blogs, I know only some scraps of PHP, Perl, and Bash. I tried to learn things like C and Lisp, but I can't bring myself to engage with the tutorial examples, because they seem isolated and pointless, and I have no grand project ideas to drive me. Sometimes I think I like the idea of the spirit and camaraderie of being a programmer more than I would ever enjoy the day-to-day work or the process of becoming one. But then again, maybe I would enjoy the reality just fine. Who's to say?

Some part of me imagines that breaking through to true understanding of these things is some transcendent experience that will take my engagement with technology to a divine new level. As much time I've spent trying to learn coding, I've spent several times that reading about the daily life of a software engineer (or computer engineer, firmware programmer, webdev, all peripheral careers). I'm never sure if it would be the right choice, but I admit I'm attracted to the thought of freelancing online while living in a country where I could afford to stop working for indefinite amounts of time when I get burnt out.
(TODO: Compile findings about the viability of relocating to Ukraine and enjoying low cost of living while working for USD.)

So what have I done? Really just tech support. PC tech support, ISP tech support (tier 2 though!), tech support on enterprise firewalls (the most fun one, some exposure to infosec and CCNA-level networking, allowed me to feel almost like I was a hacker). Other non-tech stuff like audio transcription and video captioning, copy editing, and the usual retail and call center jobs.

And what exactly do I think I'm doing?

Why does this website exist? I don't know. It has yet to prove the worth of its existence. I like to have a domain and a website even though I have nothing useful to put on it. But useless personal sites were the essence of the old web I'm trying to return to.

The beginnings of this site may focus on:

I have many shallow interests, meaning I often don't gain deep enough knowledge to be any kind of expert, so my posts here may be ideal for that kind of person who tends to lose interest when things get too detailed. With any luck, my posts about technical subjects may serve to bridge the gap between "the blind leading the blind at the entry level" and "experts writing for other experts". I nonetheless hope to stumble across a subject that I can get some good deep-dive content out of. Areas that I may or may not ever touch on include:

(This list is intended both to give you false hope and to give me reminders of things I might write about.)